This is the first time I’m sitting down to watch the Super Bowl. I’m 24 and I’ve never done this before. I feel so America!
I’m even making these Mac and Cheese cups! Which for anyone that has figured me out, “I hate cooking.” To the point I feel like I need to add that a first date now. “Oh yeah I love movies, reading and I’m not a fan of cooking.” Like if he wants out because I’m not the little lady in the kitchen making a roast.
Which is shame in the sense that I love food but I have no patience for cooking.
But today I’m in a good mood for cooking. AND SUPER BOWL! Which will be me drinking and eating and then heading over to my writers workshop half way through the Super Bowl.
Coffee of the day: Earl grey Latte. Which just makes me think of Mary and Max
So I’m just going to put it out there now: I NEED TO GET LAID!
God my body is dying…I see people making out in movies or fooling around and I get horny. It’s like low-grade porn. But I think I’ve set my eyes on a guy right now. We’ve talked before and when I wanted a relationship I stopped talking to him but we always get thrown into seeing each other and now I just want some sex so I’ve made up my mind and once I’ve set my mind on something I’m going to have sex with it (it being a guys) Damn I need some sex.
And I feel bad for this other guy I went on a few dates with but I wasn’t feeling any physical heat and I hadn’t even kissed him yet. Just through hugging him I felt like it was weak. Sorry dude but you make me feel more frustrated than wanting to kiss you.
I feel like a horny sixteen year old boy.
(Time to clean my room and shave)
On another note, if we can even move on from that thought I started to someone again. A friend, always been a friend and we’ve known each other for years and I fear he may read this so I’m going to be vague here. But I think I’m developing a crush on him.
I also find it odd that we are talking this much. Makes me wonder what he’s up to and that maybe he’s feeling the same way.
I would hope maybe something could come of this once I’m back home from school this spring. (We shall see)
Until then I need me some….some sex. Just no strings attached sex. Gosh I should just hold up a sign and make a Tinder account.
Here we go. And I need to masturbate a lot today to get through the day.