How do you thank someone who has done so much for you?
So much that I don’t think they will ever fully understand how much they have done for me.
I am so thankful for my professor. I don’t know where I would be today if not for stumbling into my spring poetry workshop last year. Gosh I owe him everything.
He has been an extraordinary professor. And I’m very sad this is the last semester I’m going to be working with him as a student. Because this last year and a half has been amazing for me.
To say I struggle in school would be an understatement. I have never been a very good student. As hard as I’ve tried I have struggled a lot and I have far too many memories of messing up in school. Too many tears and too many times I’ve hidden facts about myself to friends. Because I don’t want to appear as stupid.
For once in my life I feel like I’m apart of the education community instead of out-of-place. I feel like I belong and I can hold my own not only in my poetry workshops but in all my classes.
It’s hard to express over the internet how huge of a feeling this is for me.
I cry every time I think about it.
Every time I think about much I use to pray as this 7-year-old kid asking God to make me like everyone like. Make me not stupid.
It’s taken me a long time to figure out why I’ve ended up the way I have.
I don’t use the normal route like everyone else. It’s taken a long time to be happy with the fact that I learn differently. There are times will I still break down and I still get mad at myself. But I’ve gotten better now.
I’ve found a voice and a place where I belong. I am so grateful.
This is the moment I’ve been waiting for since I was a little kid in first grade reading Cat and Dog. The one book I remember as a child because I remember picking that book because it was the only one I could read. Or on kindergarten visit day I would have my buddy kindergartener read the books because they could read better than me and I didn’t want them to find out.
It’s been a long road and it amazes me how young I was and I still knew something felt off about myself.
And that’s what’s wrong with the education system. The fact that I felt embarrassed that I wasn’t smart enough. Finally I’ve realized how many gifts I have and the many gifts that have developed due to my learning disability.
I am so grateful for the woman I am today.
I am so grateful for all the amazing teachers I’ve been given throughout my education. Without them I would not be the person I am today. That is the moment I believe there must be something out there in the universe taking care of us. Because it’s not by accident that I was given all these wonderful teachers and these wonderful parents to hold my hand and help me through my greatest struggles and tears.
Oh my goodness I am overwhelmed with such strength and love.
This is why I want to be a teacher.
Thank you to my teachers.
Thank you to my parents.