I’m in one of those moods.
Feeling forever doubtful about poetry and my work.
I’m gradating soon and I have seen so many of my fellow talented writers leave college and to never write again.
I don’t want that to happen to my poems.
But is this a real thing? Many moments throughout my day consist of the thought, am I really good at this whole poetry writing stuff or is everyone just being really nice to me? Because who would say, “Well Sally maybe you should try something else.” This is all I got, I love it, I live for it, it’s what makes me feel better and I am the most happy writing and performing. But how will I make money? How will I get into a great MFA (Full time or low residency)
I want to be the best, but this just never seems to be in the cards for me, well I suppose I just need to dig really deep.
I’m just been so down on myself this week and my work. Maybe it’s the period, maybe the terrible back pain that makes me sleepy and in exhausted. MaybeI’m just facing some hard facts.
I don’t know what else to do but keep writing and performing.