It’s been rather snowy few months here in the Midwest. It’s almost like the Midwest knew I was going back to California in the spring and wanted to make sure I had the full Midwest snow experience. (Thanks)
January/February has been a mix of stress, peaceful meditation and moments like the ones I’m experiencing today. Blissful happy and sad memories.
You see I’m working on my second chapbook for my workshop class. I’ve decided to focus on my past relationships. I think it’s about time I’m honest with some of the most intimate moments of my life that involve sex, men and my feelings towards being a woman and growing up feeling like an object of sex. Today I worked on two wonderful new little poems and I’m very excited about both of them.
As of right now I’m very single.
Yes I was talking to and went out on a few dates with this engineer guy but it was a looks better on paper kind of deal. I just have no attention to him. I don’t lay in bed wanting him near me, if anything it’s frustrating that he has tried to meet up with me…a little to needy for my taste.
And I would love to get laid, but let’s be real that’s not going to happen. I’m rather tired of the hook-up.
There is someone I’m crushing on but I’m sure he just views me as a friend. (I hope that’s not true) But it’s more than likely is true…that he doesn’t like me in that way.
I’ve been very into the film Spirited Away lately.
Why? I don’t know. I just have.
I have been feeling very connected to films like Spirited Away, Coraline and Pan’s Labyrinth.
I’m ready to go home soon
Ready to look at MFA programs for my poetry and I’m ready to meet someone whose going to be everything I could never write about.